I took my first drink at the age of 12, and smoked cigarettes at the time too. It was 7 years after I had been sexually molested, and I was dealing with the trauma in all the wrong ways. My father wasn’t around due to his own mental illness and substance use problems. My mother […]
I catch myself white knuckling it more often than not this week. This week has been hell week. Not sure exactly what went wrong, but everything seemed upside down. Every single day was a struggle. Last night I reached my breaking point, and this morning I realize it’s time for a change. Yes, the physical […]
It is not implied that there needs to be a belief system in a 12-step program, it is required. AA, NA, and CR require a higher power in their 12-step programs. Spirituality is a significant part of the 12 step program. Now, to simply attend such groups, one does not require a belief system. The support […]
Can I tell y’all how excited I am for this weekend? I finally get to go back out to my land with my family and get lost in nature! Nature is by far, the best thing for my recovery and sobriety. All the programs, doctors, counselors, etc. cannot do for me what nature does. I […]
The news of Chester Bennington’s death hit me hard. It hit me so hard that I couldn’t write about it until now. I realize what happened inside me when I heard the news, but it didn’t come to fruition until I found myself in my doctor’s office.