I took my first drink at the age of 12, and smoked cigarettes at the time too. It was 7 years after I had been sexually molested, and I was dealing with the trauma in all the wrong ways. My father wasn’t around due to his own mental illness and substance use problems. My mother […]
I’ve struggled with endometriosis as far back as I can remember. My body is in menopause, and with that comes “endobrain.” For more on my journey click Men-o-what??? Preparing for Menopause: My Endometriosis Journey. Is is just me that struggles with what I call endobrain? First let me explain what endobrain is. It’s the fog I’ve […]
Hello Lovelies! I am proud to announce today that it is my 15th Wedding Anniversary! Today I’m going to be talking to you about marriage. I’ve been to the combat zone, I’ve conquered pain med addiction, recreational drug use, alcoholism, codependence, raising girls, PTSD, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Depression, and the list goes on and on. […]
Drop me in a combat zone with a rifle and I’ll be just fine. That’s not courageous for me. What’s courageous is facing your feelings after you get home. I’ve only just begun this journey. I’ve confessed some of my deepest darkest secrets on this blog. My character defects and circumstances are a very transparent part of me. Now that I’m in recovery I’ve learned to own them. I’ve learned my story isn’t just for me, it’s for you too.
There’s just this little thing gnawing at me. This little thing is called PTSD.
It is not implied that there needs to be a belief system in a 12-step program, it is required. AA, NA, and CR require a higher power in their 12-step programs. Spirituality is a significant part of the 12 step program. Now, to simply attend such groups, one does not require a belief system. The support […]
With all the buzz surrounding marijuana these days it’s easy to get lost in the misleading headlines. If you’re working on recovery, if you’re living a sober life, don’t throw it all away due to some miseducation. If you struggle with a co occurring disorder and want to treat it with marijuana instead of prescription medication, it is entirely possible to do so and live a sober life. The key is to do your research, and take the advice of professionals, not headlines.
It’s that feeling that I just can’t shake off. You know, one that just sits on your chest, heavy as can be. Gnawing at you. Taunting you. It wears me out. I’m tired. So tired. Tired of thinking. Tired of planning. Tired of strategizing. Tired of wanting. Tired of striving. I need to clear my […]
Can I tell y’all how excited I am for this weekend? I finally get to go back out to my land with my family and get lost in nature! Nature is by far, the best thing for my recovery and sobriety. All the programs, doctors, counselors, etc. cannot do for me what nature does. I […]
Ahhh. The allure of glam travel on Instagram is one of my favorite indulgences. Scenic beaches and glamorous supermodels (or simply feet) in exotic destinations have been enormously successful on Instagram. I dream of the day when I can post such scenery. My far away dreamy thoughts are interrupted by the ear piercing screeching of two restless girls in the backseat. Back to reality.
We have taken our kids all across the US on extensive road trips. You gotta be either one of 2 things to accomplish this 1) Impulsive Adventure Seeking Gypsies, or 2) Certifiably Crazy. I do believe we are both of these things.
What exactly is perseverance? Perseverance is steadfastness in doing something despite difficulty or delay in achieving success (Google).There’s always a message in the wait. Most people though, don’t receive it. We often get so caught up in the wait that we miss the message. Today, I share with you the message I received after persevering through a recent hunt.
So, yesterday I shot my first deer. If you’re a vegan, PETA member, or otherwise going to judge me please stop here, I’d really rather not offend anyone. Otherwise, continue for the message. It’s taken me a year of constant focus to accomplish such a thing. Whitetail hunting is not nearly as easy as it looks.