Coming Out: Bringing My PTSD Shame Out Of The Closet

Drop me in a combat zone with a rifle and I’ll be just fine. That’s not courageous for me. What’s courageous is facing your feelings after you get home. I’ve only just begun this journey. I’ve confessed some of my deepest darkest secrets on this blog. My character defects and circumstances are a very transparent part of me. Now that I’m in recovery I’ve learned to own them. I’ve learned my story isn’t just for me, it’s for you too.

There’s just this little thing gnawing at me. This little thing is called PTSD.


Persevering through the Hunt: Finding Purpose in the Wait

What exactly is perseverance? Perseverance is steadfastness in doing something despite difficulty or delay in achieving success (Google).There’s always a message in the wait. Most people though, don’t receive it. We often get so caught up in the wait that we miss the message. Today, I share with you the message I received after persevering through a recent hunt.

So, yesterday I shot my first deer. If you’re a vegan, PETA member, or otherwise going to judge me please stop here, I’d really rather not offend anyone. Otherwise, continue for the message.  It’s taken me a year of constant focus to accomplish such a thing. Whitetail hunting is not nearly as easy as it looks.

So Long, Facebook! Finding Freedom in Authenticity 

The goal was to log off Facebook and not log on again for a very long time. I’ve done the fasting. I’ve done 30 days here and there..logged out…removed the app, set timers, etc. Like a good junkie, I was right back on it before I knew it.

Why on earth would I give up Facebook, such a normalized artificial paradise, you ask?