Well, I did it. I survived yet another depression relapse. Another fight with the spouse. Another shitty Hallmark holiday, reminding me of the father I never had, and the festering wound he triggers each year. Alas, I’ve come out of the darkness once again and I’m here to share with you how I did it.
I’ve heard it a million times from sponsors, and accountability partners alike. “Do a HEART check.” When I feel I’m slipping these words ring in my ears. Sometimes, I’m capable of self analyzing before I fall flat on my face and relapse into something. More often than not, I’ll just get pissed and ignore the question. Because pretending the question doesn’t exist makes perfect f*cking sense, right?
Yeah, I love Jesus but I cuss a little. If you feel the need to judge, move along now.
The Celebrate Recovery principle 7 covers this process, which is supposed to be done daily.
Sometimes we slack and forget it, sometimes we’re straight up rebellious.
And that’s why we need each other. Shout out to all my insta peeps who did a check in with me this week. You truly saved me from further impending doom. Thanks Homies!
Anyway, there’s a reason I talk about this heart check, because it is effective.
The value of doing a “H-E-A-R-T” check.
Ask yourself daily, ‘Am I’
If you answered ‘Yes’ to any of the above, just use the tools you have learned in recovery to help get you back on track. Daily practice of principle 7 maintains your honesty and humility.
Principle 7: Reserve a daily time with God for self-examination, Bible reading, and prayer in order to know God and His will for my life and to gain the power to follow His will.
Well….shit. I’ve been slacking because I let all these things build up to an enormous pile of hurt. Had I been doing the daily heart checks, my situation might not have had the domino effect, and I may have been able to deal with each individual item.
Here’s the truth of the matter though. I’m 4 years sober. I work professionally in mental health. I have all the answers. I know the routine, I know the drills of recovery. The answer lies in the heart. When the heart is tired, it’s time to do a HEART check.
When’s the last time you did one? If it’s been more than a day, knock one out. You’ll feel better once you do. Trust me on this one.
Stay sober my friends!